Erin+TEWWG

THEIR EYES WERE WATCHING GOD __**Chapters 1+2 **__

I went into this novel not knowing what to expect. Between AP this year and last year, I had previously heard of all the books that we read, with the only exceptions being Death of a Salesman and Their Eyes Were Watching God. Unlike Death of a Salesman last year, however, I've found TEWWG to be a rather pleasant read so far. Going into it, I was warned that it is drenched in figurative language, but as I (mentally) noted during my first critical analysis, I haven't had any trouble understanding it //yet// (definitely a good sign!); in fact, I've actually enjoyed most of the metaphors introduced thus far (I was particularly fond of Janie's tone while discussing the pollination of the pear tree). Janie is a very likeable character and I enjoy reading the story in her voice. Speaking of voice... maybe this is an unpopular opinion, but I don't at all mind the dialect in which Zora Neale Hurston chooses to have the characters speak. I find it rather simple to understand (although a bit of a nuisance to type when citing evidence...) and it makes the people of the book more real to me. There are a lot of assumptions that can be made from the way a person speaks, and I like that Hurston shines a light on that fact.

Here comes the shocker: this time, I actually didn't have any trouble connecting what I was reading to a contemporary source. The entire time I was reading (in the first chapter especially), I was channeling The Princess and the Frog, a Disney film that takes place in a similar time period in New Orleans. There's a particular scene in the beginning of the film where Tiana (the young heroine) makes gumbo and invites the whole neighborhood to enjoy it with her family on their front porch, which obviously reminded me of the gossiping neighbors on Pheoby's porch and the rice that she brought for Janie when she first went to visit her. Keeping this movie in mind really helped bring the dialect to life and helped give a voice to each individual character in Hurston's novel.

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 * __Chapters 3+4__**

I feel kind of sorry for Logan Killicks. I don't at all approve of the way he treated Janie, but he was acting out of fear over anything else -- he knew that their marriage wasn't what either of them really expected, and was terrified that she would end up leaving him (which, of course, she eventually did). I'm not saying that I wish Janie would fall in love with him; I just feel sorry about the situation that they were both forced into. As for Joe Starks… I don't know how I feel about him yet. I like his character, but I'm wary of the life that he is leading Janie into. Obviously she doesn't stay with him (or at least that's what I'm assuming, since all the neighbors in the first chapter were gossiping about her and a man called Tea Cake) - I just hope that their relationship fades out rather than going up in flames. The main thing I wanted to reflect on, though, is Janie herself. At this point in the novel, I absolutely adore her. All she yearns for in her life is romance in its purest state, something that I feel all young girls can relate to -- even Nanny, in her younger years (though I get the feeling that she's blocked that particular memory from her mind). I'm both excited and sad to see how Janie grows in the chapters to come; sad because her innocence will inevitably continue to degrade, but excited because I'm confident that the spirit that makes me like her so much will somehow remain intact.

I hope no one will mind too terribly if I pull another Disney reference (oh look, my inner Disney nerd is showing)... but they're seriously all that I've been able to think of so far. It makes sense: Janie's romantic ideals are very much the stuff that fairy tales are made of. The particular film that came to mind this time was Aladdin. I'm sure we're all familiar with that movie, but I'll explain my perspective a little, on the slim chance that someone hasn't seen it (you poor, deprived child...). In the film, Jasmine, the Sultan's daughter, constantly struggles with the feeling that her life is being lived out for her -- as the princess, she is obligated by law to marry a prince. The last thing that Jasmine wants is to marry someone out of duty rather than love, but, like Janie, she is forced into that exact situation under forces beyond her control. The ending to Jasmine's story is a happy one -- her father, seeing the love that she eventually develops for the "street rat" Aladdin, changes the law so that she may marry whomever she deems worthy -- and I can only hope that Janie's story has a somewhat similar conclusion.



__**Chapter 5**__ Joe Starks is quite the smooth talker… but I'm not a fan of his. The way that he controls Janie is, in this girl's opinion, just as bad (if not worse) than the way that Logan ever treated her. Logan tried to get her to do things that she didn't want to, sure, but at least he didn't try to restrict her independent thought. I feel like the only reason he's bothering with this town is to make a profit and to flaunt it, just to prove that he's better than everyone else. Janie is young and beautiful; it's clear now that he took her along with him just so he could have something else to flaunt. He thinks very highly of himself -- like he's up there playing God while everyone else is struggling down below. This connection came to mind during the lighting of the streetlamp; like the "Sun-maker", he is bringing light to the poor, helpless people of the town. When trying to connect Joe to some contemporary source, the first thing that popped in my mind was a relatively minor character from the film Chicago, but without whom the events of the entire movie would never have taken place. In the very beginning of the movie, the viewer is introduced to Roxie Hart, an aspiring young starlet, and Fred Casely, a man whom she is having an affair with because she believes that he can get her a gig. Their secret rendezvous continue for a month, but eventually, Roxie learns that Fred is not who he says he is -- he is a mere furniture salesman; he has no connections and only told her that he did in order to go to bed with her. Enraged over his lie, Roxie ends up shooting Fred and killing him, setting the rest of the film's plot into motion. Now, I'm pretty certain that Janie isn't going to //murder// Joe Starks anytime soon, but the situation between her and Jody and Roxie and Fred isn't entirely dissimilar. Both men promised the women things that they could not provide: for Roxie it was fame, and for Janie it was love. By the end of Chicago, Roxie gets what she wants (despite having an awful moral character...), and //especially// considering how good of a person she is when compared to Roxie, I can only hope that Janie will eventually find what she's looking for as well.



**__Chapter 6__**

This chapter wasn't my favorite. If I'm not mistaken, it's the longest chapter in the novel thus far, and I felt that it just droned on and on for a lot longer than it should have. If anything, it only further cemented my dislike for Joe Starks. I mean, really… throwing a mock funeral for a //mule?// It's nonsensical and only serves to establish him as a man who's pretty full of himself in my mind. The fact that the townspeople were so willing to play along didn't help to improve my opinion on the situation any, either. It was a nice thing Joe did, saving that mule, but making it the focus of the whole town just seems ridiculous to me. Their behavior really shines a light on how easily most people are compelled to conform. I am proud of Janie for finally speaking up at the end of the chapter, however. I just wish that the men would take her more seriously. At this point, I'm pretty frustrated, and I'm really hoping that she's able to worm herself out of Joe's control soon. The grin-and-bear-it attitude that Janie displayed throughout this chapter reminded me of a song that I'm sure most of us might be familiar with: "Just a Girl" by No Doubt. The song is about the frustration the singer feels over being belittled and treated as a typical female stereotype. Despite expressing her resentment toward the situation, throughout most of the song it seems that the singer is playing along with her oppressors… until the end, when she states (several times) that she's "had it up to here". That line in particular reminds me of how Janie took a stand at the end of the chapter, and I think that this song on the whole is a pretty close parallel to the situation that Janie currently finds herself in.

//I'm exposed, and it's no big surprise// //Don't you think I know exactly where I stand?// //This world is forcing me to hold your hand//
 * //Take this pink ribbon off my eyes//

//'Cause I'm just a girl, oh little old me// //Well don't let me out of your sight// //Oh, I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite// //So don't let me have any rights// //Oh, I've had it up to here//

//The moment that I step outside// //So many reasons for me to run and hide// //I can't do the little things I hold so dear// //'Cause it's all those little things that I fear//

//'Cause I'm just a girl, I'd rather not be// //'Cause they won't let me drive late at night// //Oh I'm just a girl, guess I'm some kind of freak// //'Cause they all sit and stare with their eyes// //Oh I'm just a girl, take a good look at me// //Just your typical prototype// //Oh, I've had it up to here//

//Oh, am I making myself clear?//

//I'm just a girl// //I'm just a girl in the world// //That's all that you'll let me be//

//Oh I'm just a girl living in captivity// //Your rule of thumb makes me worrisome// //Oh I'm just a girl, oh it's my destiny// //What I've succumbed to is making me numb// //Oh I'm just a girl, my apologies// //What I've become is so burdensome// //Oh I'm just a girl, lucky me// //Tweedle-dum, there's no comparison//

//Oh, I've had it up to// //Oh, I've had it up to// //Oh, I've had it up to here// ||= media type="youtube" key="PHzOOQfhPFg" height="390" width="480" here's the music video, even though the school is silly and won't let you see it :) ||

After these chapters, my distaste of Joe Starks dwindled down significantly. I can't truly claim to dislike him anymore; more than anything else, I pity him. It's pathetic and sad how he felt the need to maintain his picture of control right up until his last breath. He didn't allow any true emotion to penetrate that image, even when it was offered to him in his final moments. Janie presented him with the opportunity to come clean, to make peace with the people and things that he mistreated in his life, and he turned her away. She made him come face-to-face with his own mortality: once his power and masculinity were challenged in such a manner, there was nothing to keep him alive anymore, and indeed he died in the room before Janie could even finish her argument. Interesting circumstances, hm? So now Joe is gone and Janie is free, and I like her much more for it. She's more like the girl we met in the beginning of the book; some of that spark and sass seems to have been revived. Initially I was surprised to hear her admit that she hated Nanny, but when I put myself in her shoes, I can see how it makes sense: she was the one who forced her into that first marriage with Logan, which is where Janie's dreams first began to fade. It makes me sad that anyone would hate a grandparent like that (I'm very stuck on how much I love and miss mine), but I can't exactly blame her for it. As for Tea Cake... I think I like him so far. I don't know anything about him, so I can't say much, but out of all the men in Janie's life he has left the best first impression to the reader by far. Good sign! I am going to try to be optimistic and remain hopeful for Janie's future.
 * __Chapters 7-10__**

Now that Joe has passed away, Janie is free as a bird, and she's obviously enjoying it. This newfound independence reminded me of yet another song that everyone knows - "Since U Been Gone" by Kelly Clarkson. It's not something that I listen to often, but it //is// one of the rare radio songs that I actually enjoy, and it's very fitting to describe Janie's situation (the chorus in particular). Now that Joe's controlling hand isn't constantly hanging over her head, Janie finally has some room to breathe and fulfill her own wants within her life. //I can breathe for the first time// //I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah// //Thanks to you, now I get what I want// //Since you been gone// ||
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__**Chapters 11-14**__

I'm still not sure how I feel bad about Tea Cake. I //want// to like him, I really do - he made Janie's soul "crawl out from its hiding place" (128), and after so much mistreatment at the hands of Logan Killicks and Joe Starks, she deserves the sort of happiness that he is able to provide. (Did anyone else notice the transition from Tea Cake pretending to play guitar for her in chapter 11 to actually having one to play in chapter 13? - it made my heart smile. :)) However charismatic he may be, however… I can't say I trust him just yet. Although chapter 13 ended on a good note, on the whole it made me very wary. Even though he eventually came back after taking Janie's money, it wasn't until after he had spent $118 of it. Janie didn't seem upset about it at the time… but I think that might be foreshadowing some trouble to come. Tea Cake isn't used to having money in his possession, and so it's very likely that he will continue to be reckless with it. I seem to remember Phoeby mentioning something about Tea Cake taking Janie's money way back in chapter 1. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that his carelessness with cash doesn't ruin the good thing that they have established.

Every time I have to write a blog, I try my hardest to come up with a connection to something that I like a lot, because I think that makes the overall experience much more enjoyable for me. That's the reason that, even though this might be a //little// stretch here, I'm going to connect this reading set to Hairspray, one of my favorite musicals. I'm thinking of the relationship between the characters Penny and Seaweed in particular. The movie/musical takes place in the early 60s, a time when interracial relationships were completely unheard of: but despite the rabid opposition they are met with throughout the movie, the love between Penny (the daughter of a strict white Bible-thumper) and Seaweed (a young black man who is frequently found in detention, although whether this is due to his actions or mere discrimination is entirely up to debate) pulls through in the end. Of course, the conflict that Janie and Tea Cake are met with might not be so intense, because it doesn't breach the racial barrier - but they are met with opposition nonetheless; the townspeople all warned Janie against Tea Cake, accusing him of being after her money, but she ignored them all and married him anyway out of __love__, a concept which is illustrated quite well in a song from the movie... but since I can't find a video that will let me embed, here's a picture of Penny and Seaweed instead. :P

[|Without Love clip]

Not to mention, Seaweed (a very musically talented character) kind of reminds me of Tea Cake //a lot//... but that's a story for another day. :)


 * __Chapters 15-17__**

Ah - jealousy is a powerful thing. One quote in particular that jumped out at me comes from page 137 in chapter 15: "Janie never thought at all. She just acted on feelings." This impulsiveness is indeed a side of her that we've seen before - abandoning the security of her first husband for Joe Starks and his big voice, and running off with Tea Cake when she didn't even really know him well enough to say for sure that he wasn't just after her money - but I think that the thought behind the quote is also true of //anyone// who is in a state of jealousy. It's an awful thing, making feelings flare to the point where logical thought is completely drowned out. Obviously, Janie and Tea Cake's violent tendencies when under the influence of jealousy illustrate this unfortunate fact. I //will// say, though, that this reading (surprisingly enough) solidified my opinion on Tea Cake: I feel wrong for saying so, but I really do like him, especially after hearing Janie expresses her love for him to Mrs. Turner in chapter 16. It seems like such a simple and natural thing; even when reading about the beating at the beginning of the following chapter, Janie's words remained too fresh in my mind to allow one incident, a hapless reaction to jealousy, to mar my newfound appreciation for his character. Gahh… that all sounds so wrong. I shouldn't like him, but I do. At this point, I'm just going to accept it. So.

I have a connection that I think Lindsay might like :) - but with all the violence that went on throughout these chapters, I am very much reminded of the song "Kiss with a Fist" by Florence and the Machine. It's a quirky little ditty that, on the first listen, seems to be about… well, about domestic violence (the opening lyrics are something along the lines of "you hit me once/I hit you back/you gave a kick/I gave a slap/you smashed a plate over my head/then I set fire to our bed"); but according to the songwriter Florence Welch,

//"Kiss with a Fist is NOT a song about domestic violence. It is about two people pushing each other to psychological extremes because they are fighting but they still love each other. The song is not about one person being attacked, or any actual physical violence, there are no victims in this song. Sometimes the love two people have for each other is a destructive force. But they can't have it any other way, because it's what holds them together, they enjoy the drama and pushing each other's buttons. The only way to express these extreme emotions is with extreme imagery, all of which is fantasism and nothing in the song is based on reality. Leona Lewis's "Bleeding Love" isn't actually about her bleeding and this song isn't actually about punching someone in the mouth."// The song describes how two people can physically hurt each other sometimes but still love each other all the while, a sentiment which I believe is exactly what Hurston was pulling for in these chapters.

//You gave a kick, I gave a slap// //You smashed a plate over my head// //Then I set fire to our bed//
 * //You hit me once, I hit you back//

//My black eye casts no shadow// //Your red eyes see no pain// //Your slaps don't stick, your kicks don't hit// //So we remain the same// //Blood sticks, sweat drips// //Break the lock if it don't fit// //A kick in the teeth is good for some// //A kiss with a fist is better than none//

//I broke your jaw once before// //I spilled your blood upon the flo//or //You broke my leg in return// //So sit back and watch the world burn// //Well love sticks, sweat drips// //Break the lock if it don't fit// //A kick in the teeth is good for some// //A kiss with a fist is better than none// || media type="youtube" key="1SmxVCM39j4" height="390" width="640" ||


 * __Chapter 18__**

I couldn't stop thinking about the recent earthquake and tsunami in Japan throughout this reading. There's so much I could say about this chapter, but I'm too much in awe of the force of nature to think of the proper words. So, rather than attempting to babble my way through it, I'll just focus on the two quotes that stood out to me the most and move on to my connection. Sound good? Good. The first (and most obvious) quote comes from page 160: "They seemed to be staring at the dark, but their eyes were watching God". A-ha! (I actually said that aloud as I was reading.) If I'm remembering previous lessons correctly, the fact that the title appears in the text is a dead giveaway that the central theme is somewhere nearby. I can't pinpoint what it is yet (trust me, I've tried)… keeping the hurricane in mind, I'm assuming that it has something to do with fate vs. free will. But that's something I'll have to come back to and reflect upon once I've finished the rest of the novel. The second quote that stood out to me is on page 167- "Once upon uh time, Ah never 'spected nothin', Tea Cake, but bein' dead from the standin' still and tryin' tuh laugh. But you come 'long and made somethin' outa me. So Ah'm thankful fuh anything we come through together". It warms my heart to hear Janie's feelings for Tea Cake expressed in such direct words. I've had my doubts this whole time as to whether he was 'the one' or not, but… there's really no denying it anymore. He's the bee to her bloom. Even after the force of nature destroyed everything else, I'm glad that they still have each other.

I'd like to connect this reading to a song called "Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again" by the band La Dispute. Similarly to chapter 18 of TEWWG, the song is about two lovers and their struggle against nature - namely, water. In both the book and the song, the purity of love is set up against the unconquerable force of nature, and coincidentally enough, both call some higher power to attention (in the novel, Hurston specifies that it is God, but in the song it is merely referred to as a seraph). There's not much more that I can think to say about it - the lyrics speak pretty loudly for themselves, I think. (I'll include the video, but be aware that the song is quite different from what you might be used to. It's more spoken word (and some shouting toward the end...) than singing, really, but it's still really powerful, in my opinion - if that's not your thing, though, don't worry too much about it. The lyrics are all you need.) :)

Out where the stones lay like bones by the ocean  Out where the waves crash contempt on the land  Someone was trembling for fear of the tempest  Somebody silently reached for their hand  Said, understand that if you're cold I'll keep you warm  And besides, there's so much beauty in a storm  So come down with me to the shore  And what's more, I adore you  So tell me, what is there to fear  You think some seraph up above is trying to rob us of our love  Because the sky's not clear <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> My dear, you know there's not <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Now listen to the rain upon the rooftop <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> But the wind picked up

<span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Out where the stones stand up like thrones beside the ocean <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Out where the waves make a grave of the sea <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> The lovers struggled in the middle of the tempest <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> And water angrily crawled up onto the beach <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Said, hold my hand and stay with me <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> We'll be released <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> But the tide clung like an anchor to her feet <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> And though he tried to make the water line recede <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> It pulled her out into the sea <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> He could not break apart the waves to bring her safely back in <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> He watched her hand break through the surface once <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Then disappear again <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Forever wait inside the sea for me, my dear <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> I hear you <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> You speak in every curling wave <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> And sing in every violent breeze <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> Someday not far away from here <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> My dear, I swear I'll see you <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> And we will hear the seraphs cry <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> For they will still envy you and I <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> How they envied you and I <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> How they envied you and I <span style="background-color: #ffffff; color: #303030; font-family: 'Times New Roman',Times,serif; font-size: 90%; line-height: normal;"> How they envied you and I

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 * __Chapters 19+20__**

Oh my. I'm stunned. What an ending! I don't know what I was expecting from these final chapters… but it certainly wasn't //this.// It was shocking enough having to deal with Tea Cake's sickness, but when I think about the actual circumstances surrounding his death… well, I still can't wrap my mind around it. The pain that Janie must have felt is entirely unfathomable to me. Having to put your loved one down like an animal, just to make sure that they didn't kill you first? I can't imagine it. I'm just glad that she discovered the pistol beforehand. I shudder to think how the story would have ended if she had remained unaware.

I had to read chapter 20 twice to think of a proper response for it. Despite the awful event that befell Janie in the previous chapter, Hurston does an astonishing job of ending the novel on a happy note. Throughout its pages, Janie found love and peace and life, and I can't stop smiling to myself about it. I'm sitting here reading the final paragraph over again, just because. Needless to say, I'm very satisfied with the book, and am glad to have read it. Bravo, Zora Neale Hurston! I am a fan.

I thought again of The Princess and the Frog after reading this section. If you've seen the movie (and if you haven't but plan on doing it sometime in the future, skip the rest of this paragraph!), I'm sure you remember Ray, the eccentric little lightning bug who serves as a friend and a guide to Naveen, Louis and Tiana throughout their adventure. Ray is in love with a light that he calls Evangeline, who is really nothing more than a star in the night sky. Despite this, he is entirely devoted to her; and after he dies, another shining star appears in the sky right next to Evangeline. However sad it is, I find it to be very touching; it reminds me of how Janie calls Tea Cake "the son of the Evening Sun" and how she feels his presence in the wind even after he is gone.

Although I love this connection, I've already used The Princess and the Frog once before, and since I am very unwilling to possibly lose points over this I'm going to make another connection - one that I'm certain I haven't used before :). After giving it some thought, I came to the realization that this reading (well, the book as a whole, but these chapters especially) can be described pretty well by one of my favorite songs: Watch the Sky by Something Corporate. The song is upbeat and is, to put it simply, about living with the cards you are dealt. I found the line "you live the life you're given with the **storms** outside" to be a perfect parallel to the end of the book; it stirs a sense of peace within me, not unlike the peace that Janie feels in the final paragraph of the novel. The lines about being home at the end of the verses also mirror Janie's situation pretty closely, I think. I guess the reason I made this connection is because both the song and the ending of the novel evoke the same emotion from me: hope - not for anything in particular, other than life itself. I don't know. I recommend that you give the song a listen, and see if it maybe makes you feel the same way. :)

//The radio is jamming, but they won't find me// //I swear it's for the best// //And then your frequency is pulling me in closer till I'm home// //And I've been up for days// //I finally lost my mind and then I lost my way// //I'm blistered, but I'm better// //And I'm home//
 * //I'm lost at sea//

//I will crawl// //There's things that aren't worth giving up, I know// //But I won't let this get me// //I will fight// //You live the life you're given with the storms outside// //Somedays all I do is watch the sky//

//This room's too small, it's only getting smaller// //I'm against the wall and slowly getting taller// //Here in Wonderland// //This guilt feels so familiar, and I'm home//

//I will crawl// //There's things that aren't worth giving up, I know// //But I won't let this get me// //I will fight// //You live the life you're given with the storms outside// //Somedays all I do is watch the sky//

//Somedays all I do is watch the sky// //I think I, I could use a little break// //Today was a good day// //I think I, I could use a little break// //But today was a good day// //It's a deep sea in which I'm floating// //Still I seem to think that I must//

//Crawl// //There's things that aren't worth giving up, I know// //When you can't bear to carry me// //I'll fight// //You live the life you're given with the storms outside// //Somedays all I do is watch the sky//

//Today was a good day// //Today was a good day// || media type="youtube" key="vn4KQqql_-M" height="390" width="480" ||